The Real Santa

Isn't it strange how belief and acceptance can come in phases? It can be applied to much in life, but for today, I'm talking Santa.

My belief in the big guy only lasted until about second grade. I wasn't out to "find out" about him. I didn't really question a single bit of it. I was riding merrily along in full belief mode, ignorant of the facts.

But, then I found myself in a storm of constant sickness. One evening, I was resting poorly in my mother's bed (to avoid getting any siblings sick), flailing around uncomfortably, when I absentmindedly fell out of bed. When what to my eyes did appear but...Teddy Ruxpin.

I furrowed my brow. Huh. Well. Maybe Mom bought him for me instead of Santa since she knew how badly I wanted him. Yeah. That.

So, on Christmas morning, when I opened the gift and noticed that the tag did, indeed, say that the gift was from the jolly man in the red suit, well...I was depressed. The fact that good ol' Teddy only lasted a week before he started speaking a low, eerie language all his own that even my grandfather couldn't fix added insult to injury.

Fast forward 25+ years. I've been excitedly attending the Candlelight Evening at a local living history museum on and off since I was a teen. At this event, it is always the coldest time you can imagine having on planet Earth, and it is always incredible. There are white bag luminaries and lanterns lit throughout the grounds, where you can visit "local shopkeepers and vendors" like the printer, doctor, pharmacist, tavern, church and more. There's a working farm with animals that you can greet, and wassail cauldrons over bonfires strewn throughout the space. Delicious comfort food is served (can you say "gingerbread"?) and you can buy handmade goodies (or more touristy stuff) at several shops, all while hearing the sound of carolers and performers wafting with the sound of horse-drawn carriages.

I mean, seriously. What's more traditionally Christmasy than that? We hear so many songs about jingle bells and horses, sharing cheer and the like, but how often can you see it in person? It's unimaginable.

The best part of all, though, is St. Nicholas. My God, guys. It's the REAL Santa. Seriously. He talks in the schoolhouse about the tradition of St. Nick, as well as telling a story about what preparations were made for Christmas in the 1800s ("saving the best apples in the cellar from the autumn harvest"), before wandering around outside for people to interact with him. When my nephew was younger and in that is-he-or-isn't-he-real phase, he saw Santa, dropped his jaw, and went up to him to say, "It's such a pleasure to meet you, sir!!" I mean, good!

So, of course, after Dave experienced this whole thing for the first time (we even dragged some friends along over the years), we decided that it would be a tradition, barring bad weather, for our family. I honestly don't recall whether we brought Hadley when he was a baby-baby (I almost think so...?), but last year was his first memorable experience (check it out here and here). It was cold and snowy - terrifyingly so on the ride home - but wonderful. He met Santa, who knew our names (!) and the rest is history. And of course we'll be visiting this year, although we have a far antsier little toddler on our hands who may or may not allow me to sit and enjoy my gingerbread (an old fashioned peppermint stick bribe may be in order), but as long as we can see THE Santa, we'll be happy.

But I WILL have my gingerbread. Oh, yes. Make no doubts about that.

I've always tried to keep the Santa concept going with my young students, although it used to be awkward and kind of difficult for me. Now that he's part of our vocabulary, though, I find myself having total dialogues with Dave (or even myself) about what Santa's life must be like, and how he gauges between a naughty deed and being a truly naughty child, and so forth. As if I'm part of a play that turns incredibly "method", I have actually started to believe again.

I mean, of course I realize how the whole thing works. Clearly. But, thanks to this little boy (and the help of a few hundred elementary students and one incredibly convincing old-fashioned Santa), the spirit of St. Nicholas is still very much alive and well in my heart.

And, really, isn't that the idea of Christmas?

So, be honest, guys. Do you believe? Has anyone else had a "rebirth" regarding the issue? Or go ahead and tell us how you found out "the truth"?